Another year has passed…

by Xenia Makridou

My last post on here is a little more than a year old, dated June 29, 2016. It’s incredible how time flies. I’m turning 21 in about a week. It’s actually scary how the days, the months, and then the years come and ago so quickly. At least I’m not feeling that I’ve done nothing in my life up until this point. Though, I do feel that I must do more. I must feel that I must do more. I guess I’m just not sure how to pursue that goal, though. This is what this post is about, really.

I seem to be going with the flow currently, working at my mother’s law office for the summer, looking to complete my undergraduate law degree next year. It seems that everything is falling into place slowly. Yet everything seems to be rather more calm than I would want it to be. But at the same time I like this security and having a clear plan ahead of me. I’m trying to think of ideas, to be inspired somehow, to do something extra, something more. I can feel, and I know, that the future is full of new and exciting things to do. That’s in any case an inevitable consequence of life. It doesn’t require too much ‘pursuing’, if that’s all one wants/needs.

My issue is, to put it simply, that I feel like I must do more, seek out opportunities, live my life, but I’m also content with my current circumstance, and really not sure whether the desire to ‘do more’ has originated from societal ‘pressure’ or is inherent. If the latter, then great. But if the former, that’s actually pretty bad. I’m leaning towards the inherent desire more, thankfully.

I guess, we’ll see.